You are dead to me.

I’m going to get back into making music. I’d love if any of you would listen to what I write, and possibly share it around.

That would be much appreciated.

I’MMMMM BACKKKKKKKKKK

 Thank you, you help me focus, you give me inspiration, you are helping me build the slight confidence that i need to do what is required.

I love you, And you told me you did.

I’ll keep you in my mind, and always at heart.

Not many of you actually care what i post, I only use this site as a blog, and to post random shit that makes me laugh/smile/etc.

I generally don’t use names, so none of you actually know who I’m talking about, unless you know me IRL.

On a slightly related topic. I have three days left in louisiana. Monday at approximately 15:00 p.m. I have to say my final goodbye’s. And then go to the hotel to spend my final night here. Then, I ship out the next day for BMT.

I’m not ready to leave, I’m only 18. I’m not ready to leave her. There is still things that I want to share with her. Things i need to tell her. Time i want to spend just holding her. I am honestly not ready for this. I’ve actually contemplated breaking my leg, it would delay my ship out date. Though i know that wouldn’t be the right thing to do, that’s just running away from my responsibilities.

I love you. Yes, i do. I realize that now. But the next four years are going to rip me apart. Especially if you get a boyfriend while I’m gone. Or find someone to care about. I won’t be able to handle it. You’re the only person that I’ve cared about in a very long time. The only person to show me that they cared, though in a rather orthodox method. <3

I just hope you love me like I love you. I’m pretty sure that you’ve realized it lately though ^-^

I get so jealous :x

but then i realize that i have no right to be jealous at all.

i’m no longer gonna stand watch. it’s time that you grow up and fix your own problems. You knew what you had to do. goodluck, because you just showed me you didn’t care